This part happened just recently this year. I know an end is near. I can feel it.
Everything happened in a picturesque background in a remote island, Malcapuya Island, in Coron, Palawan.
This was the premise: His family puts pressure in him getting married because he is not getting any younger anymore. But he doesn't want to do it if I would say No.
In Catholic faith we say," Lord I am not worthy to receive You but only say the word and I shall be healed."
So there. But after a series of vacillations, we finally decided to put an end between us. I honestly don't know how to put things into exact words. Maybe this is our current relationship-- "We are more than friends but less than lovers." Pretty complicated, huh? So I guess what we really ended was only the intimate portion of the relationship.
Right now he is married and has one kid. He now lives in NY with his wife and kid. But he would call me often.
He would still tell me,"Hey, you know that I love you!"
"Is it really possible to love two people simultaneously," I come to ask.
---Prince Henry
Just finished reading your series of posts. The love that existed between you and the pilot is beautiful. It's just sad though that you won't be literally ending up in each others arms. I am inspired, really.
ReplyDeleteI have no experience whatsoever with these kind of things. I'm young - just hit my 20's. And reading posts like yours makes me want to experience such stuff - beautiful things the world has to offer.
Thank you for sharing your life story. You give hope to those who have the forbidden truth hidden deep in their souls. Cheesy hah. But it's true.
I'll stay anonymous for now. :D See you around.
To: Anonymous (For Now)
ReplyDeleteLife is indeed full of risks, needless to reiterate; and so is Love. And it is by taking risks that we learn how to be brave.
But not all risks we are willing to take. The love that existed between me and the pilot is so risky. It will put to test the sinews of our intimate bond.
But our lives depend so much on reputation that we guard it at all cost. So being OUT to the open to declare our "forbidden love" for each othet is definitely not an option.
Ergo, that was the path we chose. He married and I am going to marry soon, too. But I guess, our love for each other never really faded. He would still often call me on special occasions to greet and say the stinging "You know that I still love you."
This Christmas, he gave me the Breitling watch that he firsh bought with his salary as a pilot. That was just so touching.
But oh well things are still getting complicated. I hope we can manage the complexities of our decisions.
For you, you're young! Enjoy what the world has to offer! Life is not a race! So savour each step of the way.
Blessed Be!
And thank you for reading the blogs.
---Prince Henry